MD Geist Posted September 5, 2008 Share Posted September 5, 2008 These last couple of weeks I have undergone like a series of rejections of the oppsite sex after working on my life these last two years and its been great. I concider myself a good person, I have a positive attitude, working towards my future my carrers, just recently got my spritial life on track, don't have the best job in the world at the moment but I don't mind I don't hate it, my body frame isn't exactly small but for being full figured I think I look better than most guys with my weight just need to hit up the weights again. Iam also very confident that my life will be great it will only getter better not worst. Iam not a very picky person but it does seem like the woman iam looking for doesn't exsist. I have never had a girlfriend and never kissed anyone. However I do feel that having a relationship is just not possible ever in my life dispite my efforts and attitude it won't happen. My out comes have aleast improved from really bad to atleast a peaceful rejections but thats about it. Finding any good women around here is very difficult because most women around here are single moms even those in my age group. I also attend a large church here the largest one in CS to be exact and its got a wonderful event there on fridays for 20somethings and yes its a great place to meet women however most have a habbit of putting you into the friends zone. I do other things outside of that and iam constantly meeting people of both sexes of all ages so theres no exuses as to why I shouldn't be meeting anyone.Iam out there everyday I never stay home and do nothing Iam always out there!. Could it be the avalabitlity? Its very difficult to meet a good woman out here most of them are taken, either married or in a relationship or just not interested in me. Then the ones that are avalable are either single moms or girls that don't carry themselves very well. I make the best effort to look great but this past week it just becomes more discouraging to the point where I don't want to even try anymore. I look all nice and such use proper posture only to see a gorgous woman be with some jobless slob wearing riped up cloths and smells funny or some wannabe gangster who can't even say "Thing" the right way and its like what the hell?. I have thought about my options over these last couple of days. Perhaps going to another state and spending time over there but I have no disere to leave Colorado, been here my whole life and starting somewhere else new would be very difficult for me at this point. Since one night stands are popular these days it seems like experience counts and everybodys doing right? I always wanted to be a great partner to a woman, now I feel like all these years of maturity of personal growth and development have been a waste. Donno where to go from where to be honest I think I finally hit the glass ceiling in this part of my life where nothing will ever change nor get better regardless of how hard I try and change things nothing ever will change. I guess its that thing in life where you can't have it. Not having a partner in life to love I guess was mine. I can't complain atleast the rest of my life is better than most people I know at my age and with all these accomplishments and where iam going I can't complain about it. I guess the next step is to close my mind off completely from women, dating, sex, love and become like a monk and try cutt off these emotions completely for life. Link to comment
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