civilservant Posted August 31, 2008 Share Posted August 31, 2008 *sigh* So I'm feeling a little down today. I think we all do during the healing and for me its worse on weekends. I'm actually really preferring to be at work and keep myself busy, because when I'm at home I can think with no distractions. Someone told me that we don't morn the loss of people, we mourn our dreams of what we could be with them. If thats true the easy way is to replace the dream, and ive done that. Last week I booked the trip of a lifetime to South Africa to swim with sharks. Its something ive always wanted to do. The high of that replacement lasted about 3 days, and now I'm back to thining about her. I see her occasionally walking to work, and I always wish I would go and say hi, but I don't. Were in LC through a friend. Shes in a really bad place at the moment, her dad is unwell and she seems distracted. My friend who works with has noticed the change in her since we went into LC from NC. He really believes we have a future together, that its a matter if timing, and I'd lve to believe that. The problem is I will wait as long as it takes, at the behest of everything else' in my life, simply because I love her so much. I don't know, the Bly thing I do know is that I wish I could hold her again. *sigh* Link to comment
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