justbrowsing Posted August 31, 2008 Share Posted August 31, 2008 I feel things have been going downhill w/my bed buddy/casual SO (whatever he is). Several weeks ago I made the decision to end it and walk away. I felt he was becoming too distant and making me feel cheap. Don't get me wrong, I knowingly entered into the relationship. But I was comfortable as long as it was on my terms. I was emotionally ready and I told him my feelings and that it had to end. It felt good. However, he countered saying that he agreed w/me in every way and wanted to work on our communication more. This is where I made the mistake and gave it another chance. The next couple weeks he was very attentive. But each time he would reach out I would be skeptical and sometimes not even respond back. In the back of my mind wondering how long it would last. I would see an email or his #on my phone and I wouldn't be as excited as before. I wonder if he could tell my hesitance. He proceeded to point out that he has made an effort but I haven't. So feeling guilty, I made an effort. Here's the thing, I feel like I am making more of an effort again. Here I am waiting for him. I feel that by deciding to give him another chance that he has the upper hand and controls the pace of the relationship. Am I wrong??? I don't like this tug of war w/my emotions. I have been honest w/my feelings. If he volunteers to have more communication and wanting more time together, why haven't I heard from him in almost 3 days? I refuse to call. I am done begging for attention. I think deserve better. Link to comment
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