Pappers Posted August 30, 2008 Share Posted August 30, 2008 Hey everyone, So almost 2 weeks ago I wrote my 'really hard news' post because I was feeling super low after finding out my ex was now dating a woman he cheated on me with. It really helped to put stuff down, and it helped me through the night. Thing is, the next day I felt ok... not great, but a whoooole lot better. It wasn't till later that afternoon that I realized what it was - I WAS NO LONGER IN LOVE WITH HIM!! It was like that huge emotional blow was enough pain to eliminate the love feelings I was still hanging on to.... like my brain shutting off the love so that I would never be that upset again. Anyway, it felt really great to realize I no longer loved him. Of course the break up still hurts, but I felt so different than before. Right before I found out about his new dating lifestyle I was counting the days of my NC. Every day was slowly ticking by. But on the day I realized he did not deserve my love and that I finally didn't love him anymore, the NC days just didn't matter.... I no longer started counting the days, thinking about him as much, or even wanting to talk / hear / see / communicate in any way! I'm still feeling like this after a couple weeks. So this is good I think. I am not over him by any means, but he is no longer someone I am in love with. Link to comment
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