ImThatGirl Posted August 28, 2008 Share Posted August 28, 2008 Why? I'm supposed to be so content with being single right? And usually am darn it. My ex, daughters dad to be more specific - his fiance moved out 3 weeks ago. They started dating before I moved out and she moved in quickly thereafter almost 5 years ago. When she moved in, I realized that we'd never work things out and never thought anymore about working things out just focused on successful co-parenting. So why.... why now that she moved out am I impacted with thoughts of what could be in the future? And even more, harsh thoughts that seem more like reality to me that.... I will always be single. It doesn't matter who it is, what guy... I will never be the girl that someone wants to marry. I just won't. Maybe my stubbornness - more likely my independence - possibly my inability to let myself be attached to anyone because to me, that means I'll be vulnerable or open myself to the possibility of being hurt. I am never willing to give my all to a relationship. To chase anyone. To make it clear I am interested in anyone. To let myself believe in a future with anyone. I was good with that but somehow... with him, stupidly, my imagination has been lively this week. It will stop. Now. I should add in my ex - the one that brought me here. I've been in touch with him and he's been quite verbal on wanting to work things out and I know better. So I need to stop feeding that fantasy as well. Sigh. I hate being emotional. Link to comment
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