MrPresidentUSA Posted August 25, 2008 Share Posted August 25, 2008 I had originally posted a few days ago asking for help from ENA veterans and everyone seemed to be telling me to move on. I didn't want to and love my efgf with everything but they are all right to do this. I was strict NC with her for exactly one month and we had been broken up since July 3rd. I was fine and doing great and then I started looking at pictures, checking her facebook and generally remembering the good stuff. I got all soft again and guess what!? I just broke NC at noon today, went to her new house that was suposed to be our house and tried to talk to her. When we first broke up, I held on because I was being pathetic and asking her to tell me that she didn't love me anymore. She wouldn't. Today however, I went over, played it cool and made it known I wanted a second chance. When I saw her, it reopened a lot of the pain and I felt weak in my chest. I didn't break down this time but I could feel myself starting to weaken. I smiled and asked for another shot to do it better this time, to do it right. She repeatedly told me its not going to happen. So then I finally laid it out. I told her I still loved her and always will and asked her. No answer. So I asked then, "you don't love me anymore?" She looked at me, in the eyes and said those words. This time hearing it vocalized crushed me. So I acknowledged it, said I wouldn't bother her anymore, and walked away and out of her house and life forever. I'm writing this to tell you that even if you do NC to get them back or anything other than moving on, you are making a mistake. Stop living for your exes. I am in so much heartache right now and set myself back leagues that I didn't need to and all because I missed something that is dead and no longer there. She told me "I never go back, not for anyone. If it didn't work the 1st time, it won't work the 2nd time." It really hurts but you really need to stop hoping just like I need to. Get rid of everything painful, all reminders. Its just gonna cause you to do something stupid like I did. Move on and start a new life, a better one and one free of the painful past. Link to comment
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