self destruction?

[lust4life]

not sure this goes here, but i cannot eat. Maybe I can, but food & the thought of eating makes me nauseous. I've been extremely upset for the past 3 months(many reasons).

I got on depression medication, and then finally felt better mentally & emotionally. However, the first medicine made me sick constantly. I could hardly eat without having to go to the bathroom or feeling nauseous while eating. So I went back to the Dr's after dropping from 130 to 123 within 2 weeks.

 

So I started a new medication & the nauseous feeling went away....

But the disgust for food didn't. At some level I think I don't want to eat because of how sick I was before, but then I also know I don't want to eat b/c I'm so upset. I don't find it appealing, it doesn't make me feel better...I don't even know where to begin.

 

...I don't know what to do, I know I need to eat, but I choose not to. I'm down to 118 now...& it's dropping fast.

Am I anorexic?

Am I taking my emotional pain out on my body?

 

Just looking for advice/new perspectives..thanks.

[burnttoast]

start with mild foods like bananas, yogurt, oatmeal, and toast til you're used to food making you feel BETTER and ENERGIZED instead of nauseated. Then start adding in other things when you're feeling better. If you're not opposed to peanut butter, it's a very good dense source of nutrition and calories to get you back on track.

[A World Away]

It seems to me that you have begun to associate food with the feeling of nausea. The only way to solve this is to change your behaviour towards food. This can be done by eating small, light things, such as a banana or something similar, then after realising it's quite nice, you will begin to want to eat more, and be more adventurous. It's about being brave to keep trying foods, and building up what you like to eat again.

 

It could also of course be something else, such as a symptom of your depression. This is actually quite common. Either way, I think ultimately it would be a good idea to go back to your doctor and describe your situation. They are the best one able to help you, as they are the one who prescribes your medication and thereforee best knows your present situation.

[dogwood]

i agree, start off slowly. i know when i broke up with my ex i was really upset and all over the place for the first couple of weeks.. and probably smoked more cigarettes than i consumed calories.. but eventually i started eating again, slowly, like ate a banana or two.. or some cereal.. light foods.. and eventually its not so bad.. you can DO it!

[girl friend]

Well.. do you feel better when you dont eat?

 

Generally speaking i would say you are not anorexic, simply because you are thinking you might be. Generally speaking people with eating disorders would not accept it so readily as you do. Are you sure there is not some illness behind this? Not to worry though, its most probably something minor. But i'd recommend a blood test from a doctor. NOW.

Loss of appetite can be associated with flu, anemia, or other medical problems.