Jim2007 Posted August 20, 2008 Share Posted August 20, 2008 I'm a complete mess right now..... My whole life I've had BAD anxiety, it all started in elementary school. I was always a very anxious kid and was always afraid of public speaking. I thought this was normal because everyone else was nervous but this stuck with me my whole life. Because of this my social skills SUCK, I always think about what to say constantly during a conversation that i don't even pay attention to what the other person is saying sometimes. Most of my friends are really just acquaintances but I do still hang out with some of them regularly but I noticed if it's just me and someone else one on one not much gets said. My sense of humor is non existent and I feel like I'm a general bore to be around. Well this is where is gets worse. I just lost my girlfriend of 1.5 years because my anxiety caused me to be a hermit. We would fight a lot and every time she wanted to talk id brush her off. I never went out with her because of my anxiety but she doesn't realize that.... she had deep feelings for me and i felt so amazing because she not only understood me, she liked me for who i was. We kept contact since we broke up a month or so ago and the ironic part is I originally broke up with her because I didn't want to make her cry anymore, poor girl I treated her like * * * * for the last halfof our relationship because of this stupid disorder i have. She kept telling me to get help but she doesnt understand how hard it is to accept what i have and go see someone... Well I did recently start seeing a shrink but it was too late.... we talked 2 days ago and she cried because she still cared for me but i told her we cant possibly be friends so she suggested i call her in a few months after my anxiety program is gone and told me to get well and take care.... So look at me now im depressed i cant eat or sleep AND my social skills still suck becasue of my anxiety so i cant even go out and meet new people. I dont know what to do, Im not suicidal but i wouldnt care if something happened to me at this point. Link to comment
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