zenbabyk Posted August 18, 2008 Share Posted August 18, 2008 When it comes to the end of the day, is NC really helping me? I do have great satisfaction by not contacting him... but the things I do to distract myself recently has been quite, well extreme. Last night my sister and I went to this fun rooftop party on top of a rest/club. & there was techno music. ( He loves techno) So by going out and trying to forget him... he sneaks his way back into my head. So i figure that if I keep drinking, and drinking more I can forget about him. The bad part is that it did work. In consequence, I ended up making out with a 40year old... (haha he looked 29 or like maybe 31) That's a 19 year difference people!! WHaT was I tHinking??? I mean I was intoxicated but not wasted! Uhhhhhh I'm screwed if he wants to get back together with me.. I am going to be so embarrassed to tell him this! + through my attempt on forgetting about "my guy" I gave the guy my number and accepted a date invite. Please tell me I don't have to go! Link to comment
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