how to express myself?

[SarCareBear]

i don't really know where else to put this, as i am confused right now.

 

have you ever felt you can't express yourself? that is how i feel with a certain person in my life right now. we became friends but i liked her and i guess she picked up on that and said that though she likes me this isn't the right time.. but she still wanted to spend all this time together and i agreed. right now she wants to see me one more time before we both leave for school. i said maybe because, well i want to, but i also don't know if i can handle it. i also feel like i've been lying to her because i have these feelings for her that i don't admit to. so on the one hand i do want to visit her and say goodbye but i feel like i'll want to tell her how i feel. but i don't want to ruin our relationship that we have right now, but i do want to be honest. i don't want this to matter or to make it a bigger deal than it has to be but, it's how i feel and i don't know how to deal with it.

 

if anyone has any advice that would be great, because i think i've confused even myself at this point.

[Clementine orange]

She probably knows how you feel already, body language, attention and all that. See her one last time, don't say anything dumb, act normal and then go find someone who wants the same thing you do.

It sounds as if you got friendzoned.