hmmmbored Posted August 17, 2008 Share Posted August 17, 2008 So, my girl left me about 4 or 5 days ago. It all started about 2 months ago, she gets pregnant, we are forced to have an abortion for very personal reasons. So fast forward to about a week before the abortion, her and i are both having a difficult time w/ it, being overwhelmed with my problems and hers paired with the emotional hardship that an abortion brings i blow up. I tell her that the way she has been acting towards me is making me feel like i dont want to love her anymore (i said this out of hurt and i completely did not mean it) and i really emotionally bring her down to a worse place out of my hurt...i decide to give her the cold shoulder for a few days while i work things out which very obviously makes me a complete * * * * * * * at this time in her life and she ignores me for 3 days, after which telling me that the relationship is over and now im being ignored. She is so mad at me right now, i texted her asking her to call me so i can atleast understand her reasoning and have a little closure about it. Ive been telling her its ok, im sorry, i didnt mean it, i was hurting, i take it back, but its all too late to her...our relationship has been rocky at times in the past year 1/2, ive talked casually to another girl and been caught and havent talked to anyone else since. We were talking about marriage, we even had 3k saved to move out and start a life. She always told me how i made her life better, i showed her God and since she has been studying the bible w/ my closest family friend. She has some new friends that influence her heavily, infact shes fallen back into her drug use and hanging out with bad friends again. These new friends egg her on and tell her what an ass i am, they dont know 1% of whats really going on. So sorry for the wall of text but i have to know...she told me today i wont "wait for her", ive been waiting for her ever since i met her, she still lives at home and just graduated high school, she thought i wouldnt wait for her to graduate, i saw her once a month but i waited through it. Shes saying she doesnt want me ever again, she doesnt want to talk to me for a LONG time and she doesnt care...i know ive put her through the ringer and caused most of the pain by my ignorance. I made a few mistakes and i want her back, i was looking for some help knowing whats going on in her mind...i dont want to move on, i really want to wait for her to calm down but from what shes said even when she does she cannot be in a relationship w/ me again. Advice please...what should i do? anyone experience this before? Im going to NC w/ her starting today because i must. Is this anger or what? Edit: I talked to her on the phone today when i got this info. The last thing i said was how badly i felt...i mustve apologized 300 times over the course of our 51 minute conversation. All i said was how right she was and how wrong i was and i wished so much that i could make it better. When she told me she had been doing drugs every day since our split that hurt the most, thinking that my actions drove her to that is really bad. Anyways, help please! Im ready for NC as its a must i just want to go into it w/ hope, if you think there is none then please let me know! Link to comment
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