Teresa24 Posted August 15, 2008 Share Posted August 15, 2008 Many stories here telling about pain after breaking up,sometimes I shared my ideas and stories.I thought I have already got over it, so I am able to help other people, but tonight I feel I still cannot take it easy,when sadness and misery attack me,I just want to speak out here. I am that kind of person with "strong will",when I feel sad,I cry secretly and still show other people a sweet smile.I dont like to show my weakness to other people,maybe that is also the reason my exbf left me. Of course we still have a lot of other problems,long distance,my family problem,we are from two totally different countries,our living habits and lifestyles are different,but I always think, as long as we love each other,we can overcome any difficulties and get together forever,in my mind, love conquers all. But he could not hold on,we have known each other for almost 4 years,and our relation lasts for over 1 year,I should confess everytime I start a new relation,what I think is about marriage and forever love. I understand it takes long time to reach that point,but as long as I am with someone,I try to keep the relation long and stable,try to solve all the problems between us,I believe there is no prefect love,the true love should experience all kinds of challenges and difficulties. He is 17 years older than me,after we have been together for half a year,we talked about marriage,it maybe too fast but I think when people love each other crazily ,they cannot wait to live together and have some bindings that they will not be separated,especially for long distance love. He wanted me to move to his country and get married with him.I am also preparing for that, and the first step-to persuade my parents to accept this. Actually I dont think I must get married now,I am still young,even not ready for that.I just want him by my side,marriage seems not important. And he is the only man I want to have a baby with,before I didnt like babies at all,but when I fell in love with him,I wanted to have a baby with him,a baby of us. But when I am still coping with my parents,he could not wait.He gave up without any reasons.I had spent a really tough time,over 3 months,to forget him,to forget all our past. He kept on sending me messages and tell me he still loves me and he misses me.I tried to ignore all and not reply him. Tonight he was online,I felt so regretful I checked his facebook,and checked some of his old pics,he suddenly come back to my life.Then I started to miss him crazily,I threw away my battery so that I could not call him.But I know it will be a sleepless night to me. I really want to tell him love you,dont leave me. But I know I cannot do this.So I write here. I should thanks to the friends who had read my boring words.And I hope those friends who are still suffering from the pain could get over it soon. Link to comment
This topic is now archived and is closed to further replies.