It is a painful night...

[Teresa24]

Many stories here telling about pain after breaking up,sometimes I shared my ideas and stories.I thought I have already got over it, so I am able to help other people, but tonight I feel I still cannot take it easy,when sadness and misery attack me,I just want to speak out here.

 

I am that kind of person with "strong will",when I feel sad,I cry secretly and still show other people a sweet smile.I dont like to show my weakness to other people,maybe that is also the reason my exbf left me.

 

Of course we still have a lot of other problems,long distance,my family problem,we are from two totally different countries,our living habits and lifestyles are different,but I always think, as long as we love each other,we can overcome any difficulties and get together forever,in my mind, love conquers all.

 

But he could not hold on,we have known each other for almost 4 years,and our relation lasts for over 1 year,I should confess everytime I start a new relation,what I think is about marriage and forever love.

 

I understand it takes long time to reach that point,but as long as I am with someone,I try to keep the relation long and stable,try to solve all the problems between us,I believe there is no prefect love,the true love should experience all kinds of challenges and difficulties.

 

He is 17 years older than me,after we have been together for half a year,we talked about marriage,it maybe too fast but I think when people love each other crazily ,they cannot wait to live together and have some bindings that they will not be separated,especially for long distance love. He wanted me to move to his country and get married with him.I am also preparing for that, and the first step-to persuade my parents to accept this.

 

Actually I dont think I must get married now,I am still young,even not ready for that.I just want him by my side,marriage seems not important.

And he is the only man I want to have a baby with,before I didnt like babies at all,but when I fell in love with him,I wanted to have a baby with him,a baby of us.

 

But when I am still coping with my parents,he could not wait.He gave up without any reasons.I had spent a really tough time,over 3 months,to forget him,to forget all our past.

 

He kept on sending me messages and tell me he still loves me and he misses me.I tried to ignore all and not reply him.

Tonight he was online,I felt so regretful I checked his facebook,and checked some of his old pics,he suddenly come back to my life.Then I started to miss him crazily,I threw away my battery so that I could not call him.But I know it will be a sleepless night to me.

 

I really want to tell him love you,dont leave me.

But I know I cannot do this.So I write here.

 

I should thanks to the friends who had read my boring words.And I hope those friends who are still suffering from the pain could get over it soon.

[journogirl]

hello

i hope you are ok-i feel your pain i am in the same boat

 

don't torture yourself by looking at old pictures it will hurt you more

 

you are the future now so look after yourself and try not to look back-as hard as it is

xx

[tina-rocks]

I'm sorry you are feeling so low and I understand why.

 

I think we will all have good and bad days. So today is your bad day. Tomorrow may be brighter.

 

Tough times call for tough measures. Or, so they say. 3 months is still new. Trust me I know mines been 3.

 

Take yourself out this evening and try not to think about it. Concentrate on yourself and the people who are still around you.

 

x

[kuhl282000]

I think you should tell him or you might lose him forever ......

 

And that would be really sad ......

 

Remember Love wins out ...........but you have to take some action to

[Teresa24]

hello

i hope you are ok-i feel your pain i am in the same boat

 

don't torture yourself by looking at old pictures it will hurt you more

 

you are the future now so look after yourself and try not to look back-as hard as it is

xx

 

Thanks,actually in the past 3 months,I tried my best not to think about him,I feel the course as getting addicted to drugs,I am addicted to him,when I can control myself,I try to be happy and forget all,but just one moment,I pick him up again,I feel I could not get out of the trap,it is very difficult to calm down.

:sad:

[Teresa24]

I'm sorry you are feeling so low and I understand why.

 

I think we will all have good and bad days. So today is your bad day. Tomorrow may be brighter.

 

Tough times call for tough measures. Or, so they say. 3 months is still new. Trust me I know mines been 3.

 

Take yourself out this evening and try not to think about it. Concentrate on yourself and the people who are still around you.

 

x

 

I also hope it is just my bad day and it will be over soon.

I am also happy there are many friends here though we never known each other,forum really helped me a lot when I felt down.

HUGS

[Teresa24]

I think you should tell him or you might lose him forever ......

 

And that would be really sad ......

 

Remember Love wins out ...........but you have to take some action to

 

If my action works out,I will not give up.

 

You dont know the story in the past 3 months...

 

I said I am a girl with "strong will"(forgive my poor english,i could not find a suitable word),but after he left me,I gave up my everything and talked to him,tried to convince him we dont have any problems ourselves,we have to be strong together to get over all the difficulties and we can be happy forever.I love him and I want him back.

 

I cannot forget that pain afterwards,I lost myself those days,even did many stupid things.I felt I could do anything as long as he can come back.

 

But he made me clear that he will not come back forever.

No one should suffer from a relation.I am just afraid we lost each other because of some misunderstandings,I dont want to regret and realize today's mistake after decade of years.So before I made my final decision,I tried my best to fix our relation.

 

But he didnt give me any reason of breaking up,and he just told me everything is over,no matter what I do,it will not work out between us.

 

After I made my last effort,I was exhausted,I have nothing to love him,I gave up.

 

it is said love is like a rubber band,two people stretch it,when one of them release but the other doesnt,he/she will be hurt.

I have tried my great effort and I dont want to be hurt any more.

 

Now after 3 months,he told me he still loves me.

I also love him,but I understand love doesnt conquer all.Maybe he is my last man,I will not fall in love again,but I dont want him back.

 

You are the only male left msg here,I think I never really understand a man.And in this situation,I dont think I should tell him I love him,he always know that but he doesnt want to face that,we cannot come back.

I know it is difficult for me to move on but I have to.

[tina-rocks]

I know that feeling. Neither has mine accept he no longer loves me and it just died.

 

Love truly knows no limits. That for the ones of us that loved so utterly and completely.

 

I hope your weekend is a little better at least?

 

Keep strong and we will get through this.

 

tina x x