kishimoto Posted August 14, 2008 Share Posted August 14, 2008 hi everybody i didnt last very long and i feel like such a loser. i was doing o.k. the pain that was so bad i couldnt walk, talk or eat had almost faded. i stopped crying every two mins. i thought i was making progress. i was still having the waves of pain, regret, hurt...the feeling of being lost but i was doing alright. i went to a job interview today that may ex helped me a lot with the application form. i found out i got the job today which was an amazing feeling HOWEVER like an idiot he was the first person i wanted to tell so i emailed him. in the email he sounded happy for me. he asked questions. told me what he was up too. we both said we were doing well (i was lying). he said things like "That's fantastic news well done!! When do you start? Did they show you round, do you think it will be good? I'm very pleased for you indeed! " "It's a great combination if you do that sort of work during the day, not too demanding but satisfying and also do your company. You can easily get there. You'll be at work in 15-20 minutes! And there's that art place next door. Will you be able to go into town at lunch or is it too far? It's all looking good for you anyway" "Glad you're having fun! " he was nice to me. we get on. so why do i feel so bad. i feel awfull. i gushed about how happy i was. he seemed pleased to hear that. he seemed like he wanted to talk to me. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH my brain is going overtime just so you know the stats. we broke up a week ago (we went back and forth about him being confused for about 3 weeks). i managed three days of NC. broke obviously today because i sent the email. HELP. what shall i do...??? ifeel like i did a week ago. please remind me of what i am doing. i feel weak again why was he sooo nice to me..??? i'm wondering if he is missing me..?? HELP ME ???? Link to comment
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