fratboy11 Posted August 13, 2008 Share Posted August 13, 2008 So quickly: I am REALLY in love with my fraternity brother, and we're already really close. My love for him, though, (as best as I can read it) is COMPLETELY PLATONIC, as hard as it may seem to believe for both you and me (believe me, I'm shocked it's not more sexual). You know, we talk and have heart-to-hearts and hug a lot but it's really weird for me, I've never experienced anything like this. I love him more than I've loved anyone before, and when I see him I see happiness and joy and security and he is literally like a big brother to me. It's kindof hero worship, you could say, but I don't feel below him in any way. It's the best relationship I've ever been in. The problem is, because it's so intense, I have no idea how to express my love for him without being gay. I mean, usually when I love someone this much I want to have sex....somewhere in my mind "sex = physical expression of love." I'm a complete virgin (don't know if that's helpful). Like, I really want to kiss him or something but that too is gay, which is unfortunate because for me there's nothing sexual about a kiss or even about love. In my life/mind/upbringing, love ==> sex or money. I never really loved my parents, which is weird, but I always attributed this to my own twisted understanding of love (i.e. I don't know what love is). Maybe I should go to counseling? Usually I would ask him for advice but, seeing that this IS about him, that probably wouldn't work. Link to comment
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