Stinkweed Posted August 12, 2008 Share Posted August 12, 2008 Insight is most welcome. I know everything's subjective. So I'll understand if people decide to call me the villain for what I'm about to say. But this has been troubling me really. Okay, where should I begin? for starters, I am totally unsure what I'll do after college. I just know I kinda want to part ways with my family. And there's a couple of reasons. For one, every time I spend time with them, I feel uneasy, because it's like they ALL want the same thing. They're totally obsessed with dieting and physical appearance. I don't say anything, because to each their own. But it saddens me when I remember days when things weren't this way, and I just remember everybody being happier and having more fun. Also, I know I'm gonna kinda be dragged into working with/for my father's company, and that I don't think is so great either, because I can barely stand my career. I'd rather have a crappier job that'll earn less money but leave me more time for me to do what I really like to do. And I know if I do this and mess up, they'll think I'm a f*** up, and I would rather not be around them when that happens. Plus I hate being compared to my siblings. It'll be a constant "oh who's making more money" blah blah... And I we used to be such good friends when I was little, but now I just get so sad at how everything, everybody changed for the worse. I don't know. I've only got two years of college left. Two years already gone, seems like it might be too late to make a career change. And even if it isn't, I wouldn't know what I would choose. I've got no natural talents whatsoever. I THINK I could work hard and get good at some things though, but it takes time, and focusing on that one thing that I'll choose, and if I like it I can do it. But I dunno what. This has really got me depressed... I've taken some interests on sports, but I'm not exceptionally good at that stuff. I've been thinkin about joining one of the school teams, not just intramural, but, for starters, even if I were to made it past tryouts which require you to be pretty good already, I know I could work hard to get to their level, but also there's the time issue. Sports team members always choose the least demanding major... I have one of the most demanding majors and I'm barely getting by when it comes to grades (I get so mostly C's now... maybe I'm just not cut out for this one). I just wish life didn't feel like such a damn chore. School feels like it keeps me away from my hobbies. I try to make time, but more often than not, especially towards the end of the semester, I, of course, put school on top of everything else and sacrifice the things I actually like to do. But it feels like the only thing in life I've got to look forward to is the day when I won't have to make such sacrifices so much. I know that's a lot, and there's more, but everything in my head is kinda messy right now... I guess I would like to hear somebody's opinion or maybe some input. Link to comment
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