Shattered21 Posted August 9, 2008 Share Posted August 9, 2008 So I had the option this week to see him, we were both going to go to this concert and honestly our seats were right near each other. i opted out. I've been NC and haven't seen him since June so I thought this is better for me. But today my friends and I were suppose to go to the beach where he lives. I doubt I would of even run into him but the plans fell through and now I have a bit of let down and anxiety. Like I play out senarios in my head when I see him, what I will say or just how I will show him no attention. I don't know why I do this! I know it isn't good if I see him and I have avoided it already this week, but i guess I still play situations out in my mind just incase fate does something and we have a bump in (granted this is rare we live an hour away from each other) Also he is leaving in a month. So this situation will only be even possible for another month. SHould I still be wanting to see him, even though it is bad for me, and I don't know what I want from it. Like to show the pain he caused me, to cause him the same pain, or to make him jealous??? -Its like I want this one bump in and I feel like it would satisfy me, but I'm not sure if it really will Link to comment
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