Ghost_z_reconyahoo.com Posted August 6, 2008 Share Posted August 6, 2008 Thank you for reading my post. My problem is internal. It is in my head. I am 22 years old. I am living 2 lives. In one life I am to be the way my parents are (Arabic, a devout Muslim, part of the Islamic community in America). This is because my parents moved from a country called Israel. My parents had me here in Cedar Rapids Iowa. My second life is the life I created for myself as an American. As soon as I was 18 I began experimenting. Things like sex, alcohol, and a drug called Weed. Well to make a long story short, when I left my very sheltered enviornment at my parents home and went to college... Wow... Everything was available. I felt like an alien that took the form of a human and I felt like I did not belong. I would feel guilty for endulging myself in sex with my girlfriend, listening to American music on the radio, and most importantly accidentally having a child out of wedlock and another one on the way. As I have matured I realized want I want from my life. My purpose. Everything I have done unfotunatly was done in the same city my parents live. I have decided to take my children down south to move. This way i can get away from feeling inadequet. How can I enjoy my life that i have created without feeling constantly that I am going against my parents? Sorry for the spelling errors i am sending this message through my phone.:splat: Link to comment
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