fivespot Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 You know, I didn't even feel this bad when we first broke up last october. I've been in absolute no contact with her since March. She called a few times since then, but I ignored every call. But as time has been going by, I thought for sure I'd start to feel better. All day at work, my mind is preoccupied with work stuff. But when I come home, it seems like all I do is dwell on how we aren't together, how we will never be together, and how I was wrong about everything. I read the blogs of my friends on myspace...and how pretty much all of them are married by now. They have pictures and blogs saying how happy they are...that they've finally found "the one." I feel like I've missed the train and it isn't coming back. I realize I can turn things around at any minute, but that doesn't make me feel any better. I'm not sure I believe in soulmates, but if there ever was such a thing, my ex was the closest I think I've ever had to having one. I thought for sure she'd be back in my arms by now. And as the days go by, I'm beginning to see that maybe she is gone forever. But I'm having a LOT of trouble accepting that. I can't believe it. I won't believe it! I guess I'm not looking for advice...it just feels better to vent. If anyone would like to offer advice or even share some stories, I'm here to listen. I'm willing to do anything that will take my mind off of her... Link to comment
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