PushingDaisies Posted August 4, 2008 Share Posted August 4, 2008 Hi everyone I hope you are all well. Its been a while, life has been hectic! I think its been about 4 months since my ex broke up with me. Im not where I was back then, I think I have come forwards. I dont cry every day at least. But the hurt is still there. We are friends of a kind. I am also friends with that girl. In a way. I hang out with my ex quite a lot. We have been to the cinema, out for meals, shopping...its been a lot of fun. We still have a great time together, its like when we first went out. We kiss, cuddle etc. For all intents and purposes, we might as well be going out...except he doesnt want to. Up until about 2 weeks ago we were sleeping together - I stopped that because I realised how awful it was, it made me feel so empty and sad and used. My ex was understanding. It led to a big conversation about what was going on between us etc. He told me he thought he wasnt good enough for me, and that I had a lot of male friends/male interest and he didnt want to hold me back. He also said how he couldnt really afford to go places at the moment and couldnt afford petrol and stuff. I take the pov that these are excuses; shouldnt it be my decision as to whether he is 'good enough' for me or not? I dont even think like that! I dont care about hanging out, or about not seeing each other much-I like spending time with him and i dont care what we do in that time. I kind of thought...if he really wanted to be with me he wouldnt worry about these things. So I think they are excuses; reasons not to be with me. He asked me why I wanted to be with him so I asked him why not? He listed a bunch of reasons similar to the above and told me to answer so I told him why...like how he always respceted me, took care of me, we have so much fun, etc. He told me he didnt know what he wanted. That was kind of the conclusion to the comnversation. He said we would always be more than 'just friends' and that I would always mean more to him than than just a friend...yeah til his next girlfriend So now...we still kiss and cuddle. But thats it. I wish I knew what to do. Thing is, I want him back sooooo much. But I dont think it will happen. If he wanted to be with me he would be. Now he isnt even at the pub, he lives 40 mins away, so if I stopped seeing him, there wouldnt be a chance to 'start it up' again, like before. What do I do? Is there any way of getting him back? Or should I cut all ties and hope to heal? Link to comment
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