one and a half years down the road and sometimes it still hurts

[spazmy]

Gosh folks, I feel so lonely and sad. It has been one and a half years since the breakup and the drama that ensued. And I am having a bad day today. I guess these are days that come and go. But the problem is, for the past year and a half, I have been working on my dissertation -- and much of the research I did for it was while I was with my ex. I will be finishing it in about two to three months. I leave the town I am in (and where my ex lives with the person she cheated on with me) in about twenty days. I am counting the days when I will be out of this hell. I wish things could go faster and I could move on to newer horizons in life. This place sucks and today I was feeling particularly bad.

 

How do you folks handle the bad days after such a long time?

[Crazyaboutdogs]

There are bound to be bad days when you remember the rip roaring pain you felt. It is okay to have bad days...just pamper yourself and try your best to shove it out of your head when the bad thoughts start taking over. At least you will be moving onwards away from the memories. In a different way I know what it feels like to be counting down the days to moving. I am moving on the 26th of this month to a new apartment. I am all packed up and now biding my time until I move. I have started marking the days off on my calendar. I wish I could just move now and be done with it.

[istillluvu06]

Crazyaboutdogs.....Thats a good idea, marking the days off on a calendar. One day closer to feeling better.

[spazmy]

yeah, the pain -- it comes and goes. I am glad you too are moving CAD. Need to get past the present -- because, oftentimes, it is the circumstances which also make us to hold on to the past -- when, really, a change of location helps.

[j0shua]

i am sorry. i am not yet that far out, but have already moved. it really did help at first...

 

i still have such bad days though. today is one of them...

[Nearwater]

Spazmy You gave me such good advice last week I wish I knew what to say. I am scared that for me it is 3 months and i am wrecked, i worry about the rest of the summer and the fall and next winter...

 

I went to a beautiful part of the island this weekend, spent the night at a great party, cooked for 50 people, the next morning went to a waterfall, skinny-dipped with 25 people then cooked brunch again for the whole crew. When I got in my truck for the 2 hour drive back through these desolate, empty roads I cried so hard I had to pull over, held my cell phone and realized that even with 300 contacts... there is no one to call.

 

So we have to get through this alone or not at all. I did not know life could ever be this hard.

[spazmy]

Hang in there Kanelio. There are tough days, and then there are beautiful days. This is life. Just tell yourself it is beautiful at the end of everday, and you will already have developed enough strength to get through the next one. One day at a time buddy. One day at a time.

[emalkoc]

Focus on your dissertation and your health dude. Believe me nothing is more important. You are just making her the most important thing in life...in reality, she is NOT. you are the most important person. We love you and you are a beautiful person and you deserve better. She is just another person...you will find the love sooner or later, I promise. Never failed for me even I was at the bottom and lowest possible.

 

cheers

 

eric