amya Posted August 1, 2008 Share Posted August 1, 2008 Do you question that the person who broke your heart into tiny little pieces ever loved you in the first place? Some days i feel really upset and regretful about how things turned out, how i want him back so bad, wish i did things better, how if i chance now i know i could do things better but will never get the chance to. How everything he ever did wrong doesn't matter anymore coz we were meant for each other etc etc. And other days, like today, am just so angry at him! How litterally weeks before he broke up with me we were on holiday together having a laugh, saying we loved each other, sipping on cocktails. Y'no, all the good stuff that comes with a relationship. To nothing. I just really am starting to wonder after 2 months of break up, and 1 month complete NC whether he really did ever love me...! And if he did why isn't he here now, or so much as sending me a txt msg to ask if im ok. Infact he hasnt asked me once if im ok in the whole 2 months!! I decided to go NC coz well, after the first month i tried so hard to be "friends" listening to him go on about how he was doing this that n all the rest. But then i couldnt take it anymore and caved in, begged him back. He said he wasnt ready to talk about things, and after asking him if i should move on he answered yes. So here i am a month later, no contact whatsoever, really doubting his feelings were ever sincere. Does anyone else feel like that? Or is it just part of breaking up? I mean if he were to sound really upset we were breaking up i'd probably have been able to feel better about things but hes never wanted to talk about "us" and well, had never gone out of his way to speak to me at all really. Is it wrong for me to feel angry/hurt that he's moving on without wanting anything to do with me? Because part of me feels bad for feeling as though i deserve more from him but another part of me thinks well he's being a complete * * * * ! ???????????????????????????????](*,) Link to comment
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