Day 7 of NC and still NC... This bites.

[giggle3474]

Its been 7 days since we last spoke. Last time I talked to him, he was getting ready to go to 'our spot' with one of his friends. I did send him that email the other day telling him I was taking time and space for myself but every day that passes that he doesn't call just makes me sadder. He didn't respond to my email but I didn't think he would anyways.

 

That's not to say that Im not still working on myself - I am. This weekend I am going out with friends like every single night and Im happy about that. But I want him to call me... I wonder if he's thought of me, I wonder if he misses me. I keep thinking about him with other women. What if he has a date this weekend. What if he goes out and gets drunk and has a 1 nite stand. What if the who#e of a bartender at the bowling alley finds out that Im not in the picture anymore and wants to show him her disgusting humongous boobs. What if he makes plans with his myspace chicks that he talks to all the time. And worse yet, what if he goes out with one of them and it goes really good and then he thinks that he is so glad to have gotten rid of me because he is blinded by the lust of a first date. It kills me to think of him getting close to someone who isn't me. I wish I knew what was in his mind. Will he remember the little things he used to tease me about? Will he think about all the fun times and the laughs and all the things we've done?

 

I am almost glad he hasn't called because I couldn't take it if he just called to say hi - just a platonic call. Just calling to see how Im doing, not because he realized how much he loves me and was an idiot to let me go. The good thing is that I have realized he was not my entire life and I can and will be happy without him. The bad thing is that I really miss him and I want to be happy WITH him. I drove him away and now I know what not to do, so why can't I get a 2nd chance??

[Massari]

I am almost glad he hasn't called because I couldn't take it if he just called to say hi - just a platonic call. Just calling to see how Im doing, not because he realized how much he loves me and was an idiot to let me go. . The bad thing is that I really miss him and I want to be happy WITH him. I drove him away and now I know what not to do, so why can't I get a 2nd chance??

 

I am really really sorry about what you are going through but, you have already took a VERY VERY IMPORTANT STEP, one that alot of us including me would take years and years to understand, THIS>>>>"The good thing is that I have realized he was not my entire life and I can and will be happy without him"

 

STAY STRONG

[curiousofthat]

stay strong. Get dressed up, feel good about who you are. Keep your head held high and have fun this weekend. You deserve to be happy. Remember you don't need someone else to bring you happiness. You can create your own.

 

This is an awesome quote

>>>>"The good thing is that I have realized he was not my entire life and I can and will be happy without him"