suzie q Posted July 29, 2008 Share Posted July 29, 2008 well... i decided last week to start allowing myself to meet new people and see what else is out there. i was thinking that even if i'm not ready for a serious relationship right now, it'd still be nice to explore the options. plus, it would be a good way for me to keep my mind off my ex. but, i have been talking to a few guys, just to get to know them--and it seems like i lose interest really fast and i feel like i am trying to make myself be interested. i mean, the guys are nice, but they just aren't my ex. i also found out that my ex's ex gf heard that he broke up with me because he told me that he wasn't sure if he was over her. apparently, she got really mad at him and told him she was happily married and that he was just her best friend and someone she's known for a long time and that would never happen and now some girl hates her because of him. blah blah blah. i also heard that he told his sister that she's different than she used to be, i guess meaning that he decided he didn't have feelings for her afterall... this is seemingly good news, however, it makes me hopeful. which is stupid. i mean, i know without a doubt that he will realize he's made a huge mistake by breaking up with me, but i also know that even if we did end up getting back together, it wouldn't be any time soon. it shouldn't be any time soon. i mean, if he needed time to sort out his feelings, a month isn't going to do it. i don't know. plus, he told me that he didn't feel the same about me, and when he told me that i felt like he was just embarrassed that he had feelings for a married woman--because that's the original reason he gave me when we broke up. i guess i can't tell the future, but i wish i didn't have this stupid feeling of hope right now. i really can't handle it and i don't know how to get rid of it. Link to comment
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