arwen Posted July 27, 2008 Share Posted July 27, 2008 Prelude I guess I have always been a 'worrier', and I am sick of it. I have been diagnosed with GAD, and this has caused depressions (4 major episodes in 10 years). My worries (read: obsessions) have had varying topics. From boyfriends leaving me, to being convinced I had a terrible disease, etc. All these years, I WISHED my worries could be about my studies because- as I thought- then at least they would concern a useful topic. I should have been careful what I wished for. It seems that I am pretty much worrying about work (my phd project) all the time. But I am not depressed right now. And I am not having it, I won't fall into that abyss, not again. In fact, I suspect I am even quite happy at the moment. I live together with my bf and our cat, I very much enjoy my work, and despite my worries I do believe my project is in fact going very well. I quit smoking over a year ago and replaced the ciggies by duration training (running), so I am in good shape. And still I am worrying 24/7, and it eats my energy and joy away, it affects my focus and it's simply pointless. So I figured a journal would be useful. I have a history of short-term relationships when it comes to journals. That is why I have a public journal, which is scary as hell, but then people can call me on it if I don't write. And if the reader is a veteran worrier who can give me a few pointers on getting your mind to stop wandering in dead-end streets, please share your thoughts. Link to comment
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