Bool Prop Posted July 26, 2008 Share Posted July 26, 2008 So, my boyfriend decided to call it quits yesterday. He said he loves me but can't deal with a long-distance relationship. Well, he's been dealing perfectly fine for the last two years. I guess I've just lost a little of my long-term appeal, haha. I wouldn't be so upset if he'd told me he hated me. But he loves me and he isn't even willing to try a little harder? He's even told his good friend that he thinks I'm perfect and doesn't what to hurt me, so where's all this * * * * coming from? There are things we could both be doing to make the relationship better. I'm willing to do anything. He's just set that it isn't going to work and slaps me with "sorry" when I suggest things. I don't know what to do. I'm confused, I'm furious, I'm deeply hurt and I feel betrayed and discarded. I've been alternating between crying and fuming all day and I just feel really lonely and dejected. I don't know if I should cut off all ties with him or keep trying to convince him that we're worth it. It feels like I've lost my best friend as well as my boyfriend. We'd known each other for a long time before we got together and always, always got along great. But how the hell does he expect us to go back to being friends? How am I supposed to just accept some stupid relationship demotion, knowing we both feel more than that, but ONE of us isn't strong enough to face it? I'd rather pound him, to be honest, but I suppose that's one of the aspects of a long-distance relationship he's busy lamenting. This guy's been the focal point of my life for years now. I've made it through some rough spots with his help. It's because of him that I try to be the best person I can be, do my best with whatever I do, because it's comforting to know that I'm loved and valued. And now he wants to break it off so suddenly. I've been taking comfort in the fact that he still loves me. I've been telling myself that there's a chance he'll change his mind, because I know it can work if we both work like we've been working throughout the majority of the relationship. But then I think about what he said again, and it sounded definitive, and I get confused and angry and hurt all over again. He's the best person I could have asked for. I love him so much, and I was close to begging like some degenerate idiot throughout the entire conversation. I don't want to lose him, and I know that if it ends here, I'll lose him, as a boyfriend and a friend - even if he denies it. Even if we were to become friends after this, I'd constantly be analyzing his words for some hint of an I-Want-You-Back. This would always be on my mind. I would not associate him with happy things, and that frightens me. He's the happiest thing in my life. I've considered telling him this, but I realized it would sound more like a threat than anything else. I'll probably tell him anyway, as I'm past the point of caring about sounding like a crazy girlfriend (crazy ex?). So what the hell am I supposed to do? Link to comment
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