dom2327 Posted July 22, 2008 Share Posted July 22, 2008 Basically I feel empty inside.I'm 15 and have felt like this for about 3-4 years, since my parents divorced. I felt guilty, and I can't shake the guilt, although I know it's not my fault. I self harmed back then, and very recently started again, before stopping because i felt bad. I mean, I could imagine what my girlfriend of six months would think. I told her ad she was very supportive but i still felt bad, like i let her down. I just feel empty now. I can't explain it, but it's like i can't connect with people, or really empathize with anyone. Basically i just don't care anymore, which makes me feel worse. My niece was hit by a bus last christmas and we all thought she was going to die. She didn't but it left me feeling, " i feel bad because all i went through is a divorce and i feel like this, and she got hit by a bus". I feel like if something worse happened to me, i could explain this and maybe tell someone. Sometimes i feel maybe that i'm just trying being attention seeking. I had/have glandular fever which someone told me can affect emotions. I consider suicide alot-just imagine what it would be like to kill myself. I suppose one of the things that stops me (or i like to think is what stops me) is how my parents/ friends/relatives would feel, but then i feel like a coward who doesnt want to go through with it. Please help-is this just normal for teenagers or is it something else? Link to comment
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