summermisery Posted July 21, 2008 Share Posted July 21, 2008 To put it shortly, I cannot choose between these two men and the life paths that will go with them. The first, we will call him G, we met about 6 years ago. Since then his family had taken him to a very rough part of the world to live for a while. Before G left, we admitted we loved each other. I promised I would give him a chance if he ever got back to America. He got back and had waited all those 3 years for me. The thing G and I have in common is ambition. We share the same plans for our future. We are very much the same in our personalities, but seeing "too much too young" affected us differently. I became very compassionate and I like to give, give, give. He still has to mature before he can open his heart again. It bothers me that he can only think of the wellbeing of himself and I, no one else. G is sometimes what I would call my soulmate. The second, I will call him T. I met T three years ago. He was in a similar dark place in his life and we bonded. We dated for 2 years. I really felt in my heart at one point that I loved T. He caused me equal amounts of happiness and pain. I don't know if it would have worked out but T was my best friend in the entire world. He could have offered me stability but he was not ambitious or confident in himself. We share compassion and sympathy for others in our personality. T was always submissive toward me, frustratingly so. It bothers me that T said he would do everything to get me back but I have hardly heard from him. When I can talk to him, he doesn't speak his mind. But I still love T in my heart, even just as a friend. I broke up with T recently, thinking I should really give G a chance. But they are both so important to me. I know it sounds silly, but T and I raised two kittens together and I promised myself I would never abandon them. I feel like I am abandoning them anyway, to live the free lifestyle I always dreamed of with G... It also hurts me to know that I have hurt T so much. I have one month before I officially move in with G two states away. Either way I cannot stay in my current home, but it seems scary to be alone at such a turbulent time. I am in pain, do I stay with T and abandon my dreams, or go with G and abandon my first love? Link to comment
This topic is now archived and is closed to further replies.