feeling abit better

[Twistedwhispers]

okay, so im feeling abit better about things tonight, been crying on and off today but for some reason im feeling better. been starting to realise that its not all my fault like ive been feeling and that he has been just as bad as me, if not worse.

ive stopped contacting him now, i feel stupid for doing it in the first place, he must have loved the thought of me chasing him! i miss him still dont get me wrong, but im just liking the fact that i feel like my normal self right now and im trying not to think about things too much as i know it will make my mood worse. the thing i hate most is waking up in the morning and the reality hitting me that hes not in my life anymore and im not laying next to him in our bed. Im sure it will get easier in time. Thanks for everyone whos replied to me, im sure i will be writing in here tomorrow, i know my emotions will be all over the place for awhile. x

[isilv3r]

They will be. When you're used to having that person in your life, every night, in the same bed, waking up with them etc., ...it's a shock to the heart when it's just gone. Im going through the same thing and every morning is a sad one but i know in time, mostly because people tell me, ...that you get through it and you move on.

[ljoy74]

Waking up is the worst. I used to wake up still feeling my ex's warm skin against mine and now that thought alone is enough to make me sick. Time will ease the pain, and as I am wishing, I'm sure you're wishing it will go by faster too.

Just think that one day there will be someone new in that bed. Someone unimaginably better than your ex who will wake up next to you for the rest of your life. That thought has begun helping me, but I warn you that in the beginning it was a terrible concept.