nikkers04 Posted July 17, 2008 Share Posted July 17, 2008 So long story short for those who haven't followed my story. Ex broke up with me in january (reasoning said he got scared) we both moved on to different relationships around april both ended in may/june I have since realized that i have never moved on from him like i thought i had its been 6/7 months since the break up and we are now friends we hang out have a good time and have our old conversations back. I'd like to let him know how i feel still...but at the same time feel it might make him run for the hills again. Just like in the letter i explain his friendship is more important than anything else but think its only fair that i tell him how i really feel so i just wrote a letter to jer because i really don't think I'd have the balls to tell him in person...except I'd be there when he read it i don't know when i plan on giving it too him but it will be a while just want u to tell me if its dumb, too much, honest, etc. of course i'm going to tweak the letter a bit fix grammer spelling etc. Guess what today is/was? yep would have been together for a year today. I'd like to thank you for everything you have ever done for me. I do really appreciate you being there for me when I didn't or couldn't count on anyone else, or want to be around anyone. I really never expected you to be the one to come to my rescue when everything started to fall apart, losing my job Cody etc. I think it is time for me to be honest with you. 1st and foremost our friendship is the most important thing to me and if nothing else I'm happy that you are still in my life. when we went floating you said that it isn't fair that the guy has to put his feelings out there and make the first move hoping to not get rejected. So here it goes just putting my feelings out there, its not fair if I don't tell you how I really feel about you. I still care about you not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Even when i was with Cody i would get excited every time you would text me. I thought I had moved on but thinking about things now...Cody was a rebound and a failed one at that. When you text me right before you left to go to the lake with your family apologizing and saying sorry for not being the same guy. I knew I still had feelings for you just wasn't exactly sure what kind. Then you called that night and we stayed up practically all night just talking and catching up. I really didn't want to hang up it felt good to talk to you again.When you showed up at my house after Cody broke up with me you walked up behind me and hugged me and that felt really good to be back in your arms again even if it was only a friendly hug. I remembered why I feel for you in the first place. Now for our trip/ride to Stanley when we got to lowman i remembered our little drives trips to the hot springs and when we drove up to challis that one day just to get out of the city and be alone. I could help but start crying when you asked what was wrong. I told myself i wouldn't miss you but its like everything has come back to me if there is one memory I don't ever want to lose it would be that time at the hot springs, it was raining just you and me and it was perfect. you said that your not emotionally attached and i can understand that I'm hoping it is something that could develop. I'd like to start over start fresh take things slow and see what could happen if you could open your heart and let me in again. i really think we could have something good. why not try a clean start I've worked alot on what you didn't like before and have realized what really is important. Like i said at first your friendship is the most important if you dont' feel the same I understand was just taking a chance and hoping for one back. I don't know when or if I'll give this to you but take care....Biscuit Nik Link to comment
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