mca1975 Posted July 16, 2008 Share Posted July 16, 2008 Hi all, As some of you may know, I met the guy I was dating for 5 months but just as friends, because it was not progressing as he cant do a relationship, or doesnt want one. However, I pushed for one all this time with him, but Im beginning to think I couldnt handle one anyway. I feel so very confused about what I want. I daydream about having a relationship again, a happy life with someone I get on well with and love, but I look for it in all the wrong places, and am attracted, it seems, to guys who cannot give that. But when I feel like im getting close to someone, I get scared myself - just the same as them! I dont understand it.... Im not working at the moment, and its getting me down, tho I have interviews in the pipeline, im waiting around a lot and its making me think and making me crave company. Ive got plenty of friends but I enjoy spending time with him so much, maybe too much, that Im missing it. But we cannot be close friends because I have this need. So very confused about what I want..... I have moments when I think, if he was to come to me and say he wanted a relationship now, which isnt going to happen by the way, I think I would say no, but why on earth have I pushed for one with him all this time??? Makes me feel like he and I are kind of the same, just wanting that company now and then with each other, almost using each other. Please help me figure out what I'm all about??? x Link to comment
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