anonymousk Posted July 12, 2008 Share Posted July 12, 2008 hi all, I'm new... just joined today... heres a story for you. my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 4 years... he is 19, I am 22... I have never, ever known someone who could understand me so perfectly, or had so much insight... he is wise beyond his years, and I love him so much... but we have always lived in two different worlds because of our age difference. It never bothered me or him until recently... I am becoming a woman... who needs a man... he is afraid to grow up however. He knows I am disappointed because of this. I've tried to brush it aside... tell myself I am becoming materialistic and shallow... but the thing is... when he was 16 and I was 19, I moved accross the country from virginia to california, got my own place and worked my ass off just to be close to him. Its what I wanted to do, it made me happy. I started going to school out here and we attended the same college. We would talk about moving in together... I cherished the idea of seeing him grow into a strong, self sufficient man, and I would be his lady who spoiled him... but he's changed. He doesnt want to move in with me anymore... he wants to stay home with his mom and take it easy... he's never had to do anything difficult or ever go out of his way for me. I understand that he wants to just focus on school and live comfortably... I'm bittersweet about it... I've never had a family to rely on. I'm independent and I've faced the world alone... but just because I do it doesnt mean I want to do it forever... I wish he would fight harder for me. It might sound terrible but I wish he'd step out of his comfort zone for me like I did for him. I'm tired of standing alone... I dont want someone to support me, I just want a strong pillar of a man to be there... standing by my side... I've spoiled him rotten. I always take him out places, buy him expensive toys... I'm starting to think I've spoiled him too much. He's taken me for granted quite a few times... I love him... though lately I've been thinking that its time to say goodbye. But he really is a gem of a guy... and I can just see myself regretting leaving him... some new girl will snatch him up and never let him go... I just know it... But it really hurts me... it seems his own comfortable life is more important to him than I am. I dont know what to do.... I want to challenge him... how can I? mature and insightful replies only, please! Link to comment
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