patientpanda Posted July 12, 2008 Share Posted July 12, 2008 When I came to college three years ago, my HS girlfriend totally broke my heart and didn't even know it. Even when, within my college breaks, I tried to console some type of friendship or understanding between one another, she would totally reject the notion that her actions ever would've hurt me and that I was wrong. This is three years ago, and it's in the past. I cut her off from communication. Since then (since the time I've been trying to make sense of a girl's presense in my life) I have gone through multiple relationships which have gone horribly wrong. I have taken the position that girls are only "used" which doesn't get far, and if it does get far it goes nowhere fast. I've learned from these mistakes too She recently has tried to contact me by "facebooking" me. When I was facebook friends with her (my class is the first real "college facebook" generation), I constantly checked hers and I seemingly made my facebook around what I though would impress her into being with me again (I was fricking nuts back then). This is when I saw a problem, and removed the problem from my life, or my facebook. Now that she has facebooked me, I have that rush of excitement and emotion (my stupid love emotion) that she gave to me in life, which ultimately, in the past, led me to disaster and depression. It's been two years since I've ever contacted her. She tried facebooking me earlier last year, and I rejected it before. In one hand I want to believe that accepting her as a facebook friend will bring back that joyous relationship and personality (which I though she had) back into my life. On the other, I don't believe that she's much more than foolsgold that I need to get over, and I should continue my NC crusade. Currently I am in no relationship, and I want to believe accepting her would maybe spark something, or maybe she grew up in three years, or maybe she still has feelings!! But I don't think that's true at all, because it's just a pointless Facebook friend request. If she really cared, I think she would try other contact methods as well. Any thoughts, personal experiences, suggestions on my situation? Link to comment
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