Life is a game

[Ftheworld]

There are winners and losers. Some are good players and some are bad players. I happen to be a loser and a bad player. I've tried to ignore these feelings and keep on going but it's becoming difficult. Thankfully, the choice of suicide will become easier in the near future. Once my mother and dog dies, I really have nothing to feel guilty about by ending it all. No other close family that will care much. No girlfriend/wife. No friends. I'm alone as it is. I'm not about to go on completely alone. So I'll just suck it up for the next 5, 7, 10, 15 years and just pull the trigger.

 

Believe me, this is not my fault. I would love to feel different about the situation. I wish I was good looking, charming, funny, intelligent and able to attract women and make friends. Women do not look my way. And the people who I think become my "friends" always end up betraying me or talking/making fun of me behind my back.

 

I'm just sick of it. I just cannot operate in a world where 99.99% of people are cruel and evil. I think if I had the power to drop a bomb and kill all the assholes in the world, I would.

[isilv3r]

Can i ask something? Do you have any friends? If so...do you feel uncomfortable going out and socializing? One day you're going to need to learn to trust people and maybe that's why you have that empty gap. Maybe it's time to change something about yourself. Are you stuck in a routine doing the same thing everyday? Change it. The only person that can help you, is you.

[Daddy Bear]

And in the end

 

the love you take

is equal to the love

 

 

you make.

[Ftheworld]

Can i ask something? Do you have any friends? If so...do you feel uncomfortable going out and socializing? One day you're going to need to learn to trust people and maybe that's why you have that empty gap. Maybe it's time to change something about yourself. Are you stuck in a routine doing the same thing everyday? Change it. The only person that can help you, is you.

 

No friends. I try to be friendly when I meet people and they are friendly back but I never get invited to hangout or do anything.

 

I don't feel comfortable going out and socializing alone. Where would I go anyway? I don't like to dance or go clubbing.

 

How can I trust people? I started a new job a few month's ago with the hope that my feelings would change by meeting brand new people but it's all the same. I just want to live peacefully these next few years until it's time to go.