feeling sad...

[dont_know_what_2_say]

I went out tonight with my brother and cousin, since she came to visit and she's leaving soon so this was the last day she could go out..

i had been feeling pretty down the whole day... missing the ex..i'm on day 6 of NC

so we to go the club, everything is going ok, i'm trying to keep happy since she's there to have fun and i dont want to be the party pooper..

then we go to sit down and the bartender of the place comes up to me and hands me a drink and tells me "im the cutest girl there ", and that his number is ont he napkin..

after this i dont know how to take it and smile..

then i go to the bathroom and i start to cry!!!

my cousin was with me and she hugged me and things..

i hadn\t cried in front of anyone since i broke up with my ex.. i usually tried to do it hiding since i didn't feel comfortable..

so the fact that i had drunk maybe one beer i guess was enough to let me "let it all out" ( i'm not a drinker, it makes me dizzy..)

i was so depressed after because this guy reminded me of my ex for some reason....and we left soon after..

so yeah i'm still feeling pretty depressed... i guess i could say this is the worst of the days of the "NC challenge" alskjfaldkjf

 

some words of encouragement would be good now...

[nelz]

I cried (after the brief smile), when someone showed an interest in me too. I think it's reminding of us of the attention we enjoy, but yearn for it to come from our exes instead.

 

I'm sorry you've had a bad day, hopefully today will improve for you. Take each day as it comes.

[dont_know_what_2_say]

I think it's reminding of us of the attention we enjoy, but yearn for it to come from our exes instead.

ohh thats it! thats exactly what it is.

when that guy talked to me and told me those things, i wanted it to come from my ex.. blah!

i hate this feeling, but i guess its just letting time pass before it goes away......