blueeyedme Posted July 10, 2008 Share Posted July 10, 2008 Ok, a little background info. Currently I am in a long term relationship - comfortable but not leading to marriage. I am a professional road warrior - traveling out of town on business 3-4 days of nearly every week. Note that although there are ample opportunities, I have never cheated on my lady nor do I plan to. Current state: I have an incredibly strong crush on a married work associate who happens to be my right hand person - we are equals, not a reporting relationship. The weird thing is that I have worked with her for 3 years and have always liked her just fine as my associate - but this "crush" has come on in the last 3 months after she returned from maternity leave - how wacked is that! Now don't get me wrong, she will never know about my feelings as she's married, I am in a LTR, and I never want to be known as "that guy". I also need her too much to screw up our working relationship. However, there is no denying that we are quickly becoming platonicly closer approaching that of "work spouse" which I am apparently not quite dealing well with just yet because between my ears I am wondering what if... and just to top things off for you, we travel alone together every month or so but have not yet since she's been back. I know my head's right - but I have to admit that this has been messing with me because of intensity and length of the crush. Reality of course is what the heck would she want with a middle aged guy 12 years her senior.... but then again, Calista Flockhart is 22 yrs younger than Harrison Ford. Anyway, secrets are powerful and saying my secret here makes it less so. Link to comment
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