Maverick32x Posted July 7, 2008 Share Posted July 7, 2008 Wow, my life is getting too much right now... anyone want to help sort through this with me?? Ps: this is going to be really long I have a feeling so better go make some popcorn and come back... all done? sweet.. enjoy~ First off Graduated from University with a psychology degree in May.... I have no job still.. I wanted to take a year off before Grad school to do "fun jobs" and experience life for a change... so I decided to pursue a bartending job... took classes... 700$ later I'm certified and ready to go! (I really know my stuff) But that was about 2 weeks ago.. I've spent every day looking for a job.. and nothing... I guess its frustrating because I know I need to go to Grad School to get what i want to get done (be a clinical therapist) but I really want to go out and there do some travelling and live an exciting life for a bit.. I don't know why.. maybe I'm immature, but I really want to be completely independent and on my own. I want to be able to see things all over the world and meet all diffrent types of people.... Anyways, on my bartending job search, I drive by a counseling center and think *Hey, I have a psych major.. my concentration is counseling... why not?* I go in there... and they refer me to another center.. I apply there.. seems positive... that was about 4 days ago.. I've heard nothing back but it would be an interesting job and something I'm def. interested in!! However, I still am without a job, so I keep searching... I go to a friend of mine's party.. this girl really starts to fancy me.. and I find out she is pretty high up in a local restraunt.. and they need bar tenders.. so I go there to apply today... she talks to some managers.. and they tell me I can be a server for a bit, and if I do good work, they'll let me be a bartender.... awesome I think.. but I really want a job now!! Plus the counseling job (Resident Therapist) would be a lot better.. and am I willing to do two jobs? I don't know!! I need the income, so I would not be against it... However I don't want to get pigeon holed into a routine that doesn't allow me to break out of here and out into the world~ okay, now lets add a twist.. last year I worked at a summer camp for children with behavioral disorders in NY... and I'm really starting to miss it, and people that were there are kind of pressuring me to go back.. which I do want to.... oh ya, and my ex-GF wants me to go back to it.. because she is going to be going back also... which of course could be good/bad... so thats kind of tainting my view I'm pretty sure.. I want to really search inside myself to figure out if I really just miss being with her there.. or if I really miss being at the camp... and if she is there.. I can't expect things to be the same between us as they were before.... I'm just worried that I'm going to convince myself that she really wants me to go, and that we'll be together.. I'll change her mind about our relationship and we'll drive off into the sunset holding hands etc etc... But I really am quite level-headed about the whole thing so I feel like I can make a good decision.. I guess I'm just worried I'll get there and she'll have a completely diffrent view on me... Okay, so basically I'm worried that if I leave for this summer camp (would be a month) I would blow my oppurtunity at all these other places and put myself in a much worse position then I currently am in... Also, my plan is travel to Australia before applying to grad school.. and as its going right now, I am no where near making enough money to go out there.. which is really bumming me out A LOT.... phew~ done.. any comments? Link to comment
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