Baudelaire Posted July 4, 2008 Share Posted July 4, 2008 Really long and really sorry heh....This is my first post here and not really sure what to say. I want help basically. First im beginning to just really not like my friends. There just not people I feel close to. Cant talk to them or trust them with anything for that matter. I have one true friend and thats bout it. Ive never had a close family outside of those in my house and I simply do not get along with my mom and sister at all, we fight every day. My parents got divorced when i was 5 and since we havent really spoken with my dad or his side of the family and those on my moms are either dead or we just rarely speak. The only girl i have EVER had a crush on has gone into solitude. She just doesnt go out at all anymore. I dunno just feel very alone and depressed all the time. Even when I do hang out with my friends I feel alone entirely. Work is a mess aswell. I dont socialize with anyone there. Their a circle of friends who dont take kindly to new comer's like me apparently. I recently quit the whole party scene. wont touch alcahol anymore. Occasionaly will smoke weed but only because it's relaxing. My birthdays around the corner and thats been kinda bringing me down even more. I dont want anything materialisic. Just wanna hold someone in my arms while we sleep. But thats not somehting you can ask for on a wishlist really heh. It's like im just fading away from existence entirely no real reason to live. The only thing ive ever wanted to do was travel but my financial situation just wont alow that. I dunno what im asking for really just any of your two cents would mean the world to me and thanks sooo much for taking the time to read this. Link to comment
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