Jetta Posted June 29, 2008 Share Posted June 29, 2008 I just dropped off my daughter. Her birthday is this week, we had a mini party for her but I'll never get to host her birthday parties. My ex MIL is her mother now. They have her in too many activities, they cut her hair too short, she's my daughter but she's theirs. And I hate it. There is nothing I can do about it because attorney's are too expensive and well I'm legallly crazy. Even Brittney Spears doesn't have custody. Sundays after visits are just so hard. It's so comfortable having my daughter with me. If I had a gun I would just blow my head off, outside so then I wouldn't leave a mess. I have sleeping pills but my luck I wouldn't die, just damage myself and I don't want that, I only have about 10. I've tried taking two before but no luck. I'm actually saving those 10 pills in case I want to use them for suicide. They're prescription sleeping pills. I don't feel like I'll ever have a normal life again. Right now I'm living on disability, at my mom's house, paying back bills and stuff that couldn't be written off with bankruptcy. My life is in a hole. I've tried to get a job just no on will hire me and I don't know why, really I don't. Even Target wouldn't hire me as a cashier and that's lowly, but they hired my mom who didn't take the job because it's beneath her. But they didn't hire me! I'm an optimist at heart, it got better from horrible worst, but still it's bad. I'm just really sad and can't believe this is my life. Link to comment
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