icarus27 Posted June 29, 2008 Share Posted June 29, 2008 It takes so much effort to re-focus on other aspects of my life, to keep telling myself that even if my personal life is not what I want it to be, I can continue to live in other ways. I have just spent an abysmal night, and who knows I will spend many more, now that a promising prospect, a girl I had really started to get to know, has ended things. I have spent the whole night, in between fits of sleep, waking up only for the whole memory of the rejection to come back into my tired mind and hit me with its full force, again and again. I've been crying down the phone to the workers on a depression helpline and maybe there will be many more like this. I can't take it. I'm weeping because I don't want to go back to the awful, awful place I was once in after the break-up years ago that tore the existence out of me. I'm weeping because I think of calling up my dad who I am distant from and saying, "Dad please help me, I can't go on like this anymore". I'm weeping because I couldn't make my life work, I can't attract anyone. Link to comment
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