msfoolish Posted June 28, 2008 Share Posted June 28, 2008 My ex and i split up 6 wks ago. its been so so hard. I adored him, idolised him i guess and when we split i thought it was the end of my world as i knew it My (our) future shattered, over i the blink of an eye. I tried NC but failed miserably, and so did he. we text, we talked, met up, he told me he missed me, still loved me but was so confused. we talked about reconcilliation and said we would spend time together to see how we both felt, but then he kept letting me down, not calling or texting but then saying sorry after a couple of days and saying we'd do something together and then doing the same, letting me down again. finally one of my friends saw him and said he had to stop messing me around, if he never had any intention of being with me he should tell me. Immediately after he text me saying he thought about it and he just cant get back with me cos theres too many memories. Now i'm left wondering how someone who was with you for nearly 2 years, and who knew how upset you were could do this? I never did all the iniciating, he used to text me to talk about us and how he missed and still loved me too! Did he feel sorry for me, guilt, lonely or was he just keeping me there till something better came along? I'm a complete mess! in 6 week i havent stopped crying, i've lost weight, i cant sleep and i just think about him the time. i just want to shut myself away, i cant stand too much noise around me and need everything to be calm. I'm finding it very hard to keep myself together at work. If i wasnt self employed i would have taken some time off, cos i'm finding dealing with my clients on quite a personal level too much to deal with. They ask me about my personal life and i nearly break down, a couple of times i've just burst into tears! Definitely not good!!!! I know everyone says keep busy etc, see friends, look after yourself but i'm feeling broken. I'm looking after my kids, working 2 jobs, looking after my 2 dogs and its all really feeling too much for me. I have no family support as such but i have one good friend that is helping me through. i just feel so sad all the time and feel like i'm so close to a break down. How do i move on now and be happy again? Plaese help XXX Link to comment
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