ycmanvs Posted June 26, 2008 Share Posted June 26, 2008 I cannot explain what is going on inside my head. I was fine this morning. Then I got to work and looked over some old emails. I know it was a bad idea but I wanted to see a chronology of the past 6 months, to see why I initiated contact in the first place. Some of his emails made sense to me. Others completely contradicted what he had previously declared. It was all a huge mess and I am geting nostalgic and sad, even though rationally, I know that he was not the right guy for me. He lied, cheated, over and over again...and every time, blamed me for doing so. I actually tried to change, and did...and things did not get better. Now, I am alone. I have not had sex in months. I am afraid to meet new people because I can't trust anyone. I am afraid to go out because I might drink too much...I can't concentrate at work...I am a mess...and it's only been 3 weeks. This has to get better, right? I've been in many relationships before. It always gets better. Link to comment
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