silentrecon487 Posted June 25, 2008 Share Posted June 25, 2008 Nothing ever gets better. I still miss her more than anything. Its been a little over 2 months. We were together for 8 months, but were BEST friends for another 8 months before that. We were so insanely close. We used to talk for like 4 hours a night. She broke up with me, and now is with one of my (ex)friends who's leaving for college after the summer. I want to get back together, but more than anything I just want to be friends. I don't know what to do anymore. I told her its too early to be friends, and I can't do it right now. We did NC for a week, and she kept texting me and calling me nonstop. I never replied, but finally did after a week. She came to my house and bawled her heart out about how much she doesnt want to lose me as a friend and I mean so much to her, blah blah. I told her I wanted to be friends, and I just needed time. We've been NC since that for over a week, and she hasn't tried to contact me once. We've NEVER gone more than 2-3 days without contacting eachother, even if we don't actually talk. It just killed me to go this long without hearing anything from her. I finally broke down and asked her why she hasnt said anything. We somehow kinda fought and now she's just basically ready to throw away the friendship and just keep me out of her life. I dont know what to do. I'm trying to move on, but nothing works. If I stay in contact, I get hurt. If I do NC, I miss her so much and just end up going crazy. I keep checking her myspace to see if she's changed stuff, and it just drives me crazy. I want to just move on from her. I'm so sick of all this pain. Anytime it starts to get better, it just gets worse a few days later. It seriously feel like this will never end. I miss my best friend. Maybe I should just try to be friends again, since NC doesnt seem to be working. I dont know anymore. Sorry for the rant, I just needed somewhere to let it out. edit: just to clarify...I've tried to do the normal stuff for recovery. I started working out, I started talking to other girls, doing hobbies, whatnot. Some days it works, other days, like today, it just doesnt. Link to comment
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