CrashTestDummy Posted June 23, 2008 Share Posted June 23, 2008 I sometimes can't help but think that I have some kind of mental/depression disorder, and I find myself thinking that I'm bipolar occasionally. Here's my story, I always think about my life, and think about my past, and every time I do I feel really depressed because sometimes I think that my life has just been through a real crap hole (I usually use profanity to describe my life but I can't on this forum but you'll get the idea). I start getting really sad and to the point of crying sometimes because I just see my life as a total ruined hole. But then the next day or so I'm better, or sometimes even when I think about the next day and feel bad about it, I'd do something such as make myself breakfast, play a video game, watch TV or something and I'd totally feel fine the next couple of minutes. My emotions turn on a dime and sometimes for no reason, the opposite sometimes happens like when I'm hanging out with my friends and suddenly I start thinking about it and I just feel terrible inside. It usually happens when I do something that reminds me of it and once I start feeling bad its hard to turn it around. I just randomly get sad and happy and I sometimes want it to stop. I don't know what to do, I have never seen a doctor for this and I have been depressed as far back as my childhood years. I have vividly remembered either wanting to die and being afraid to die when I was 8. My parents don't find any mental problems to be serious so I have never seen a psychologist for it and I probably won't until I am older. Can anyone here help? Link to comment
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