winter whiteout Posted June 21, 2008 Share Posted June 21, 2008 I am so tired. I can't stop crying. I have no one to talk too. I am a woman in her 40's and I wish I did not have to go on. There is not one aspect of my life that is worth living. My newly ex husband left me 2.7 years ago and I received my divorce decree in the middle of May. He just married the woman he left me for last week. I have been through therapy and a support group for it and I have accepted that he has left. I just don't have a life to move on to. I have high moral standards and I did not date one person while we were separated. Now I am free and men are not attracted to me. They act weird around me and it does not matter how friendly I am. I don't want to go on about this because it is not my only focus. I am working but barely making ends meet. I have a painful condition called RSD that prevents me from being able to go out and do the things I used to love before my accident in 1999. I am alone 90% of the time that I am outside of work. I go and see my parent's and siblings about once or twice a month but no one comes out to see me (I am half hour away from them) I have a few friends but they have busy lives and no time to see me. So is this all there is for me? Going to work to just be able to survive but I am in so much pain from my condition that I can't do a lot of things anyway. Just go to work and come home alone for the rest of my life. I wanted to join a local singles group but it cost money and they do a lot of activties that I can't do anyway. I have looked into EVERYTHING you can think of to try to survive in this miserable world and I am so tired and can't do it anymore. I am not successful, am barely surviving, in pain all of the time and no man will ever want me as is. What is there to live for? Link to comment
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