Coleen Posted June 19, 2008 Share Posted June 19, 2008 Well, the questions regarding my nature arise all the time. But this one, I feel, is quite imporant. This will be long, but please read it and leave your take on it, please. It concerns my relationship with the opposite sex. Somebody recently told me that I was afraid of getting into a relationship and that I behave like a teenager. Well, I don't consider myself a teenager, but when it comes to romantic relationship something happens, clicks, and I'm not me anymore. I was thinking about it and the thing is that I am not afraid of a relationship. I am, no matter how strange it sounds, ashamed (on some level) of growing up and becoming a woman (not in a physical sense but behavioral way). I'm ashamed of flirting, of seducing, of a relationship. I just feel that it's wrong when I do it, but my mind says the opposite. Maybe that's a kind of fear? When I do romantic things I automaticaly think about my mother, and turn into this naive creature, a good girl, although it's totaly not my nature. I'm wondering what made me so, and how can I change it? I didn't start dating till a while ago (~6 months, when I moved out to live closer to college). And in my family there was a kind of an unspoken rule that I couldn't date. And in a way I'm greateful for this rule, because it allowed me to grow on many other levels. But now, I find it hard to have a normal, sound relationships with men. There's always this prudish emotion on my part when it comes to romance, and I'm tired of it. Yes, I do have high standards, but when it comes to actually acting on my feelings I'm stuck in my old habits. I don't mean to boast, but lately I've noticed that I'm quite a head turner (talk about ugly duckling story). And there are many opportunities for me to act upon, but something is stopping me! So...HELP! I'm a bit lost in this situation and would love an outside take on it! ~ Coleen Link to comment
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