ENA avatar dream, what does this mean?

[dragon111]

I had a really chilling dream last night.

 

Here's some background first, i had some, i so hate writing this in black and white, some trouble involving some sexual abuse when i was younger.

 

Anyway, I had this dream and i was on ENA and the person involved in my history was standing behind me (don't know why), and when i was logged on i noticed that my avatar picture was a photograph of me when i was younger and i was naked, it was a horribly gloomy photograph. I was trying everything to shut it down but it wouldn't shutdown.

 

What does this mean, does it mean that i'm afraid of being recognised do you think? It was very disturbing to see that on ENA, this place is sanctuary but suddenly it was hell, it was like the site had taken on a completely different purpose. I felt violated. It was very odd, very odd indeed.

[renaissancewoman101]

Maybe the dream is telling you that you spend TOO much time on ENA and should get out in real life more than you do now.

 

Or maybe, unconsciously, you ARE afraid of being found out by your ex/SO on here.

[Mavh25]

Could you be embaressed/ashamed atall by what you've been through?

 

I used to be

 

How did you feel while trying to shut it down? sounds to me like a bad dream about your past, mixed with something you'd been doing that day.

 

Maybe you should look up a dreams interpretation website/book

[Dako]

Maybe you're afraid of not really being Picard, but a vulnerable person like the rest of us.

[Jeffrey2095]

I have read that dreams often represent unfinished business in our real life.

 

I'm just guessing, but maybe the abuse was the unfinished business, and your subconscious mind want's to bring it out here?

 

Jeff

[m12988]

I dont know, it just sounds like one of those "naked" dreams to me..you know, the ones almost everyone has that you are in a public place and naked. I dont think it calls for any concern, really. Its just a dream. We all have weird dreams. Don't take them seriously.

[dragon111]

Could you be embaressed/ashamed atall by what you've been through?

 

I used to be

 

How did you feel while trying to shut it down? sounds to me like a bad dream about your past, mixed with something you'd been doing that day.

 

Maybe you should look up a dreams interpretation website/book

 

I think there is still shame there yes, and when i was trying to shut it down there was definitely shame, but there was something else, almost like it was still active until i could shut it down, like i just found out that this was still happening and continuing now and until i shut it down then it would continue. Maybe it is telling me that i have to deal with this.

 

Maybe you're afraid of not really being Picard, but a vulnerable person like the rest of us.

 

Picard is kind of my role model actually, so maybe your on to something there, i always see him as being disciplined and has no feelings to some extent, and i suppose in a way that's what i want, not to have any feelings, just to be a functioning member of the machine, stupid i know, so maybe this was a sub-conscious war between who i want to be and what i am fighting against.

 

I have read that dreams often represent unfinished business in our real life.

 

I'm just guessing, but maybe the abuse was the unfinished business, and your subconscious mind want's to bring it out here?

 

Jeff

 

Perhaps this is still unfinished business, perhaps i havent locked it away effectively enough yet, it's so much easier to lock away than dismantle bit by bit, i have this horrible feeling that sooner or later i will have to accept that no prison will hold this, and i'll have to tackle this properly. How do other people deal within things like this, it's so easy to be distant, i don't know how it can be dealt with in any other way really. I wont see a counsellor yet, in time i will, but now isn't good for various reasons.