I am so sick.

[carrickfergus]

Okay, it started out as a fight about moving away from this horrible side of town. But my mother can not find a job. Money is tight. And it just is not feasible. But my sister doesn't understand. My sister suffers from a eating disorder and she isn't quite well... And she is violent. She almost attacked my mother. Now, she is crying outside in the hallway blaming my mother and screaming. Maybe I am not understanding as I could be but she is dangerous and unstable but my mother doesn't understand. I am freaking scared for her sometimes.

 

I sit in my room praying no one will see me. No one will here me. That I will disappear. I want to waste away. What the hell can I do?

[adahy]

Okay, it started out as a fight about moving away from this horrible side of town. But my mother can not find a job. Money is tight. And it just is not feasible. But my sister doesn't understand. My sister suffers from a eating disorder and she isn't quite well... And she is violent. She almost attacked my mother. Now, she is crying outside in the hallway blaming my mother and screaming. Maybe I am not understanding as I could be but she is dangerous and unstable but my mother doesn't understand. I am freaking scared for her sometimes.

 

I sit in my room praying no one will see me. No one will here me. That I will disappear. I want to waste away. What the hell can I do?

 

There are always options, they're just not apparent sometimes. Why do you feel you have to stay there? Are you in a position to get a job, get your own apartment in a good area? People do it all the time.

[ResonanceTheory]

Have you spoken with your sister, tried to address some of the problems she is having? The stresses of life can wear on someone, and if your family is going through a hard time, your sister may be having problems with handling her emotions and dealing with what is happening. She's not necessarily psychotic or unstable.

 

I don't know exactly how bad the economic situation in oldsmar is, but you can usually find a job anywhere. Sometimes, however, you have to lower your standards. For example, when I am in my hometown, I can make 14 dollars an hour as a secretary, but when I am away at college, the only positions available to me are significantly less profitable, with wages at about $7 an hour. You can't really force your mother to do something that she doesn't want to, but if you really want things to change, you'll have to take matters into my own hands. When my family had very little money, I got a job so that I could pay more of my own expenses instead of relying so heavily on my mother. Even though it wasn't the best job ever, it definitely helped.

 

You're 19 years old, and if you're not headed to (or in) college, it's probably a good idea that you get out there and start working up the ladder to a decent job. Not to be too harsh, but the way it usually goes is that way: if you're not going to post-secondary school, you start a career. It'd be a lot more productive than sitting in your room trying to become invisible. And it looks like your family could use the monetary assistance.

 

Not saying that money will solve everything, but it can help and bring you closer to moving out of the bad side of the city, which seems to be bringing your family down.