pillmatic Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 i can't take it anymore. I have this feeling like I need to punish myself whats happening. I need to punish myself because I'm ugly, I need to punish myself because she doesn't feel the same way, I need to punish myself because I wasn't invited..etc. I normally OD on something or just drink til I puke. But I don't like that as much anymore.. what would be something else to do? i need to hurt myself Link to comment
qtbutterfly Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 Taking drugs, drinking, and hurting yourself isnt the thing to do. You obviously want to change and be helped (thats why your on ENA)...but in order for other people to help you...you have to want to help yourself. You shouldnt talk about how you want to hurt yourself and OD. Im sure you've changed alot of peoples lives for the better. You should find something to love about yourself...then you should find postive people to be around. Dont drink and hurt yourself to solve your problems because it wont fix anything...I can promise you that right now!! Im here if you wanna talk!! Link to comment
girl friend Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 i can't take it anymore. I have this feeling like I need to punish myself whats happening. I need to punish myself because I'm ugly, I need to punish myself because she doesn't feel the same way, I need to punish myself because I wasn't invited..etc. I normally OD on something or just drink til I puke. But I don't like that as much anymore.. what would be something else to do? i need to hurt myself it sounds to me like your problem is your rigid and inflexible beliefs. You will not be loved by everyone, invited everywhere, loved by the same person in the same way forever, get whoever you want, etc etc. By setting these goals for yourself you are setting yourself up for hurt, pain and disappointment. Have you thought about therapy? I'd recommend a Cogntive Emotional Behavioural Therapist, or perhaps psychoanalysis. I don't mean that to sound patronising, but then you wouldn't need to hurt yourself, or be in this pain. girl friend Link to comment
pillmatic Posted January 16, 2008 Author Share Posted January 16, 2008 it sounds to me like your problem is your rigid and inflexible beliefs. You will not be loved by everyone, invited everywhere, loved by the same person in the same way forever, get whoever you want, etc etc. By setting these goals for yourself you are setting yourself up for hurt, pain and disappointment. Have you thought about therapy? I'd recommend a Cogntive Emotional Behavioural Therapist, or perhaps psychoanalysis. I don't mean that to sound patronising, but then you wouldn't need to hurt yourself, or be in this pain. girl friend' no, i dont everything. i only get down for stuff that really mattters Link to comment
pillmatic Posted January 16, 2008 Author Share Posted January 16, 2008 but i really had some fun with my arm the other day. It was the first time in months... and it felt so good. I don't want to start again, it would destroy my life any anyone found out... I just hate myself so much i can't take it anymore. Link to comment
girl friend Posted January 16, 2008 Share Posted January 16, 2008 I must stress how dangerous it is for you to let the cycle of SI hurt you again. You beat it once, its not a place you want to go again, is there noone u can talk to around you? Why do you have yourself? What do you hate? girl friend Link to comment
pillmatic Posted January 17, 2008 Author Share Posted January 17, 2008 today was another great day. I took a load of happy pills and then went at my arm and leg. aww life is just great anit it? Link to comment
Aldo25 Posted January 18, 2008 Share Posted January 18, 2008 I'm not the best person here to be giving advice on this subject, but look, you need to do something besides cutting. When I wanted to stop cutting I started smoking, now I am going to tell you right off that smoking is a bad habit that you really shouldnt do. However it worked for me, took edge off long enough for me to stop thinking about cutting, when I started smoking I was able to not cut myself long enough for my scars to heal. Link to comment
girl friend Posted January 18, 2008 Share Posted January 18, 2008 today was another great day. I took a load of happy pills and then went at my arm and leg. aww life is just great anit it? Don't worry about it. Things ll get better, you just gotta believe. Don't worry about the slip ups, they happen. You can get through this. Think positive. And take good care of yourself now you're injured. girl friend Link to comment
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