pillmatic Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 Well I've realized something. Something powerful that eats at me everyday... I used to hate how my life was going. The people, events etc.. but now that things are going better I'm still in the same spot. I hate myself, not my life, myself. I hate the way i look and act. I hate being ugly, and I've lost weight but i'm still fat. I can sometimes tell myself its gonna be ok, but its only fake happiness that fades. I deal with all my friends issues, I've saved a few of them from suicide. But last Tuesday i had a friend almost fall over that edge. Ever since then i can't sleep or eat. I have my friends talk to me about their problems but i perfer to bottle mine up. As i lay awake in what seems like a surreal fantasy, I feel i could fix everything by giving up. I just want to say goodbye. Link to comment
DreamsTornApart Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 i feel the exact same way everything right there all the same, but theres gotta be something that you care about enough to make you not give up. Like me theres this girl in my life who i care about more then anything, the only reason im still alive is because i have to make sure shes happy. If im dead i cant do that. theres gotta be something to keep you alive Link to comment
qtbutterfly Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 I think you shouldnt keep your emotions bottled up...you need to talk to people. Its good that you saved your friends from sucide but you need to save yourself now. You shouldnt look in the mirror and see your flaws. It seems to me that your a really good and caring person. You should see the good in you. Saying goodbye wont fix anything...it maybe a easy way out for you but what about your friends and family? They love you and dont want anything to happen to you. You need to find people and things that will make you happy....i dont think friends that wanna commit sucide is gonna help you become any happier. Link to comment
qtbutterfly Posted January 14, 2008 Share Posted January 14, 2008 i feel the exact same way everything right there all the same, but theres gotta be something that you care about enough to make you not give up. Like me theres this girl in my life who i care about more then anything, the only reason im still alive is because i have to make sure shes happy. If im dead i cant do that. theres gotta be something to keep you alive You should find your happiness from inside of you...not in other people. What would you do if that girl left? You should seek happiness from within and not from other people Link to comment
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