Destroyed our friendship???

[babybear]

Me and my best male friend at Uni always spend nights with each other in each other's room just talking whilst in bed hugging. We are very close and I tell him everything and really care about him. Then about four days ago he told me he liked me more than a friend. I really didn't think I saw him more than a friend but we ended up getting with each other. the next night we spent together again and got with each other again. I was now thinking maybe I could like him more as I was thinking about him all day after this and felt really happy about it. However, he knew how I felt - that I really liked him as a friend and didn't really think more. He told me he doesn't want a relationship and I said I didn't either and we both said we didn't mind if we got with other people.

Then the day after this we went to a club night. We said we were excited to see each other and dance etc. he went with his friends and I went with mine. Before me and my friends got to the club though I saw him running down the street holding hands with a girl he'd got with before. This really shocked me for some reason and made me cry but I tried to forget about it and go to the club, once in there I saw them kissing. Then about two hours later he text me asking me where I am. I didn't reply but later on saw him dancing with his friends and saw the girl at the other side of the room kissing a different guy.

I was very cold with him the next day which was yesterday but then decided to be normal with him but just not get with him again. He has no idea I saw any of this. Then last night at the club we were at he saw me dancing and I was dancing with two guys - both he knows, both good friends and one of them gay. I saw him then grab the girl he had got with and then start getting with her. This really, really upset me that it had happened again, fair enough the other night he didn't know I saw but he did it deliberately this time (at least that's how I felt). I cried again and now feel like our friendship has been destroyed. This morning I see he has called me twice at 4am which usually means it's because he wants to come over to my room for hugs and chats. I was asleep though.

I don't understand my emotions because I don't even really like him more than a friend I don't think but this has just devastated me, like it really hurts my heart.

[rockr]

well both of you are not best friends , best friends dont do such kind of things. anyways, playing games creates issues. he is good at it also.

why are you jealous when you dont have feelings for him and he hooks up with other women. he wanted you to be with him but you told him you are not interested. now he can do whatever he wants , isn't it.

 

are you clear if you do have or not have feelings for him and want to be with him. maybe you need to think more on this.